Thursday, May 20

The run that wasn't

According to master half marathoner guru to the stars, Hal Higdon, I was scheduled for a 5 mile run today so after work I came home, got changed, ate a snack, and prepared for my run...all the while a voice inside me saying no.

That voice kept repeating no as I laced up my sneakers, turned on the Garmin and headed out the door. My left calf and knee have been especially sore the past couple days and I haven't been sleeping well but I let my stubborn pride overrule them and forced myself to run. About a mile into it, the voice inside myself went from a polite and quiet no to full force, screaming at myself STOP. TAKE A BREATHE. WHY ARE YOU FORCING THIS?

Running is supposed to fun. It is supposed to be something I enjoy doing, and instead it was painful and out of sorts and just plain wrong. At that point, I decided to take a short cut and head home. I couldn't help but feel tremendously guilty. I was disappointed in myself for stopping and I felt like a could I ever finish a half marathon if I couldn't handle 5 miles?

I wrestled internally. Start up again? Call it a day? And then I stopped myself. I CAN run 5 miles. I just did on Tuesday. I've been working up to this half marathon for weeks and I AM going to kick its ass, but I also need to listen to myself. I need to treat myself better. Taking a day off from the schedule isn't going to hurt anyone. No puppies or kittens will be harmed, the world will still spin on its axis.

So I came home and did "Yoga on the Edge: Sunset" from On Demand instead. The description read "a 30 minute yoga series to wind down at the end of the day" which was exactly what the doctor ordered. I stretched, I breathed, I relaxed. I downward-faced dogged and warrior-posed myself to pieces, all the while imagining myself on a white, sandy beach at sunset

(Let's pretend this is me, shall we?)

and it was fabulous. Feelings of guilt are still simmering, but I am going to shut them up with the Grey's Anatomy 2 hour season finale and some Chocolate froyo...that always makes EVERYTHING better!

1 comment:

Rachel said...

Pain means stop running. Don't injure yourself silly.

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